3 year old

My son turned 3 today and I am filled with such emotion. I am happy and sad and over joyed all rolled into one...It has been a roller coaster ride of happiness, struggles, and memories. I am so happy and my daughter turns two in November. We had a great birthday party filled with friends and family and everyone that we love so dearly..the best kinda party really. We got a thomas cake and for his first two birthdays he cried when everyone focused on him and sang him happy birthday....But this year he was happy and couldnt wait to blow the candles out...My little man is growing up....This morning we went to breakfast at our fav breakfast place the Cookhouse and she made him a mickey mouse pancake with a candle and he got to blow it out again he loved it.....

Big Decsion

Let me start out by saying.....I have been blessed in my life....I am adopted my parents could'nt have children . My mom was a prima Ballerina and was the star of the show she got pregnant when she was 14 and my G'ma shipped her on a bus to mexico for a abortion...back then it was unheard of to be pregnant at that age and especially when you were in ballet.. Come to find out(when I was a teen) that they butchered her...so she couldn't have kids...They tried all the tests and embarrassing procedures for years and nothing...So they went to the adoption agency and were accepted but the lady told my mom and dad that it could be up to 6 years wait...So they put it in the back of there minds...I think it was something like 2 weeks later they called and said they had a baby girl for them that day....WHOA ....My parents and I were meant for each other....It was love and first sight.....Now I have been blessed with 2 wonderful children of my own. My son is just a wonderful little man and my daughter is a shining star.....I have known all my life that I want to give back and now a chance has come along that is just down that alley....A surrogate....My pregnancy's were very easy now complications...There are some things to think about....I have to have a c-section my bone structure doesnt move as it should to allow a baby to come naturally....they will only accept you as a surrogate with 2 c-sections which I have had... We want more children but what if something happens where I can have anymore children I know I know be thankful with what you have.....also if something happens to me on the surgery table...I have to think of that also...Just my mind is riddling with questions and what if's ...I hope someone gives me the go ahead or a reason not to so I know the path I am supposed to take....

Glue

I seem to be trying to be some sort of glue to keep my family together?!? What has happened? I have 2 toddlers and a hubby to be. That should be enough. Now he says he isnt coming straight home to avoid any arguments. I think the problem is that I am a stay at home mom and when I work hard all day to clean and cook and take care of the kids and he walks in already in a bad mood and nit picks at something instead of seeing something that I have done day after day...I seem to be getting in a bad funk. Is a little encouragement way too much to ask? I mean when you work somewhere and you go to work everyday and get nothing good said to you does that make for a healthy work environment? So we will have to see how this unfolds....I will hope for the best prepare for the worst....Wish me luck

14 hour road trip with 3 kids and we survived

I drove to Arizona with 4 adults and 3 kids ...2 toddlers and a infant... On the way down my daughter had explosive diarrhea and was blowing out her diaper 2-3 times a hour so we had to pull over and change diapers that lasted like 3 hours after we reached Arizona so she had that for like 16 hours...The amount that she had it caused a rash the worst I had ever seen...she couldn't walk and didn't want to be held so when we got settled into the hotel I took her diaper off gave her a long bath and then left the diaper off for 4 hours and it cleared up whew.... It was a nice visit with my ex- brother in law I like the desert it wasn't as hot as u expected it to be hottest day was like 98. I didn't have any allergies at all while I was there which was god sent...The ride back was alot harder cause it was in the day and the kids got over the ride faster..On the way down we drove over night...Harder on the drivers but easier for the kids. Next time I plan on flying. 

RSVP?

Today I have a bunch or running around to do. I am hosting a baby shower which I have no idea how many people are coming? Its a bit unconventional I just hope less show up then the amount of food we made. I would really not like it if more people showed up then food we have for them to eat....Why is it when you put in the time to send out invites people don't bother to RSVP? But you call them or see them out and mention it and they are like oh yeah we will be there... Ok so let me get this straight you get the invite and see that it has a date to RSVP and you don't? UMMM rude!!!! Have these people lived in a cave or on the moon or maybe they have never hosted a party. It makes it much more stressful to go from 15 people to possibly 30 or more but you really have no idea so it will be a fun party I just hope we have enough of everything. I love baby showers, I had many with my two kids and each were different some were just women some where both  men and women and some were elegant some BBQ's each one was sooo fun ...I just hope this one falls in to place. So if you are reading this when you get a invite in the mail and it says RSVP please do either if you are coming or not it is a very respectful thing to do for the host Thank you for listing to me complain I appreciate  it!!!

Crazy dayz

Why is it that men think that stay at moms 1 should stay at home and not waste gas and 2 dont really do anything....R U KIDDING ME????? But then I leave the kids with him for 2 hours he is calling up a storm saying when are you coming home....It is beyond me the big gap in communication between men and women...Drives me crazy...I am busier now being a stay at home mom then I was working 65 hours a week...I dont think we ever will agree so we will have to agree to disagree but for the record I AM STILL RIGHT!!! lol

Today is another day.....

Today was a ok day....I havent blogged in a long time..but it is something that I need to do. My kids are getting bigger every day my son is now 2 1/2 and my daughter is 16 months old....I have now started a very popular cooking site on facebook called home cooked love and I have been cooking alot more I pretty much love it... I am hosting a baby shower on saturday and then monday I am driving to arizona which from my house is like 14 hours crazy??? um I think so...Hopefully it will go well my kids like the car and we have been on car trips so we will see how it goes lord help me....