Another day

ok, lets get down to the dirty details......I am 29 a mom of two wonderful beautiful children. My son bradley is a brave stubborn courageous two year old. My daughter is a beautiful smiley imaginative 6 month old. I am engaged to a yummy man who is the best provider for a family anyone can ask for he would work 24 hours a day if need be. I live in a heaven that is a apple orchard so I have the best of both worlds I live in santa cruz which is a gorgeous beach town and instead of living in town I live in nature and love it. I get to teach my kids things that normal parents would have to do while camping or hiking. We have alot of different animals up here from lizards to deer to hawks ect. So sounds great right? So why the hell do I struggle to get through day to day. Well I have postpartum depression. It has made me sad and unable to cope most of the time with just being happy to be a mom. Mad? Hell yes. I have a wonderful family and 60 percent of the time I can't enjoy it. I am very thankful to be surrounded by people that can see when I am struggling and step in to help. My only hope is that one day my hormones or whatever will go back to normal and I can get off the meds and just be thankful that god gave me the chance to have the beautiful family.